hey Reader, mau here writing to you from Thailand.

first off,

i sincerely apologize for leaving hanging. how freaking rude (and selfish) of me.

truth is, just a few days ago – i was having a mini crisis. floating around, drifting, no clear direction…

working "hard" but hardly working.

i was starting to internalize that working hard wasn't supposed to look like meaningless grinding for hours on end.

that most of the time – doing ONE thing done extremely well will outperform TEN things done half-ass.

so in a way, i just stopped moving.

deep down, i was looking for the THING I could focus on that would bring the outsized returns.

shit –

i even had this "genius" idea –

go meditate with monks in Thailand. deepen my spiritual practice. surrender to the universe.

it sounded SO aligned in the moment.

but you know what i realized?

that's not surrender, that's avoidance.

i didn't actually want to sit with the discomfort of not having a clear direction – and just ESCAPE into spirituality to grow.

truth is,

REAL surrender isn't just about following your feelings and doing what "feels right".

no.

real surrender is about CONFRONTING what's in front of you, and diving into it head first.

so with that – I decided:

stay in Bali, get myself a villa, and LOCK IN.

but first?

visa run in Thailand…

and well, here we are.

but i was not expecting this…

first off, Thailand is NOT like Bali at all.

where Bali is westernized, hectic, crowded… overrun with influencers, communities, and spiritual freaks (aka me) –

Thailand is chill AF.

where I am – there's hardly ANYONE around. the beaches are beautiful. the food is incredible. and it just has this genuine peaceful tropical island VIBE.

plus, it's been storming and overcast so the vibes have just been on point.

and truthfully,

it's reminded me why I LOVE solo traveling. because i'm not trying to "fit in" to some community or clique – or subconsciously "compete" with anyone

it's just ME. my thoughts. my CREATIONS.

which is exactly what the past few days have been.

i let go of trying to do things "the logical way" – and i just started PLAYING again.

playing. creating. designing. BUILDING.

and for the first time in over 2 months?

everything is starting to FLOW.

i can FEEL it pulsing through my body. staying up till 3 AM wired AF. ideas coming to me in the shower. waking up EXCITED to start the day...

and this whole experienced showed me something i forgot:

when you grip too tight to YOUR plans... you block what's actually trying to come through.

when you try to do things the "logical way"... you kill the FUN.

but when you just PLAY?

when you create from pure curiosity without worrying about outcomes?

you start to flow with the current that is already moving through you.

while simply allowing the life that wants to be expressed, to be expressed through you.

much love

mau

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