hey you, mau here

writing this to you from a little hut on a beach about 25 min from where i live:

i came wandering today

tbh – i've been feeling overwhelmed. it feels like i'm forcing shit. like things aren't flowing.

and the truth is,

sometimes, no matter how hard you try –

your problems can't be solved by doing more. they can only be solved by doing less.

yesterday, I spent the entire day working on this "email funnel" –

and then by the time I was "done" – nothing even felt right anymore. I got the feeling that i was overcomplicating the entire fucking thing and ended up extremely frustrated.

1 - i felt drained from starring at my computer all fucking day

2 - i felt like i had just wasted the entire day (and some days last week) working on something i probably wasn't even going to use.

3 - if I wasn't going to do that plan – then what the hell was i going to do now?

this is a recipe for max irritability.

then i met up with this friend from breathwork last weekend to get some dinner. he told me how he had been taking it easy all day – because he knows that when he's not feeling it, it does no good to force shit.

it was exactly what i needed to hear.

so today, I woke up and went to a cafe...

but instead of doing work, I read up on some course content I had been putting off.

then, I felt called to wander to this little beach town – so I threw on some alan watts and sent it.

i ended up finding a really peaceful cafe with some grass. i meditated, ate, and read autobiography of a yogi which I had also been wanting to do.

i started getting some clarity on how to move forward – so i tried to do some work….

but again – it just felt like i was forcing.

so i stopped.

i came to the beach, rented a surfboard, and went out in the water.

it was nice.

first time i surfed since i've been out here.

i sat down here at this little food stand. the guy offered me a coconut. i opened my computer and just wrote this email pretty effortlessly.

i don't really have a grand finale of:

"and all the answers i was looking for came to me!!!"

cuz they haven't.

truthfully, it feels like I'm walking through a giant cloud right now trying find my way.

i can barely see like 2 feet in front of me - if that.

but i know there's no going back, and the only way out of the cloud is to keep walking. even if i have to take a little break to catch my breath.

i guess i'm just writing this to show the real time process of listening to your body, surrendering, and going w the flow.

because no matter how hard you try to force things...

it's just not going to work.

sometimes the only thing you can do is slow down, get out of your mind (into your body), go in nature, and wait patiently as the answers to come to you.

will let you know when they do.

much love

mau